I am

When I was a teacher, one of my favorite things to do with my students was the "I am" poem.  I absolutely loved our poetry unit, as it really helped me get to know my students on a new level, but also let them get to know themselves.  I took a grad class with an amazing teacher and we got to do a lot of creative writing.

One lesson he taught was simple.  Let your students tell them about yourself simply by completing:

I am...

Of course like any good teacher I would do this assignment right along with my students.  I let them see a little bit more of me and open that door of communication.

It also reminds me of Steve Chandler's 100 Ways to Motivate Yourself, he talks about children writing a "Lie Poem" where they speak of all of these amazing things they do in life.

We should be more like our kids.  Speak the truth that we want to be.

I'm not sure exactly how or why this popped into my head this morning, but after reading my daily devotionals, I felt drawn to write in my journal.

I clearly then felt the need to bang my fingers against this black keyboard and share my current "I am."  I wish I could find my examples from years ago; oh how much I have grown! I'm putting a twist on this one though and only allowing myself to complete positive thoughts.

I am-

an amazing wife.

a strong and patient mother of two.

a girl mom.

a boy mom.

a stay at home mom.

a work at home mom.

living my dream life.

loving, compassionate and caring to all things.

about to turn 36 years old.

blessed with a beautiful home.

healthy, whole and in great shape.

proud of my body, birthing two healthy babies.

a lover of green tea lattes and fine wine.

passionate about living my life to its fullest.

slow and articulate, enjoying every season of life.

loved.

witty, charming and can talk to anyone freely.

full of heart always helping others.

a runner.

a yogi.

a nature lover.

free from reflux and tinnitus. 

full of grace, peace and love.

present in the moment.

grateful.

accepting of myself 

a dancer.

living.

breathing.

being.

a Summer girl.

a writer, a reader and a published author.

a lover of healthy foods.

someone who helps others find a home in unconventional ways.

a peacemaker.

a loyal friend.

selfless.

selfish.

loving meditation.

always up to try something new.

a lifelong learner.

vulnerable.

a traveler who loves to explore new people, places and things.

fit.

happy.

I am Me.

Want to try it?  Don't filter your thoughts, just let it flow.  Try to stay optimistic and speak in the present tense.  Yes, EVEN if you find yourself writing something negative, switch it to the positive.   I will be honest and say that I've been feeling a bit in a funk these few days and I found that writing always helps, especially something like this.  Let me know if you write your own! 

Top 10 Health Tips

I am by no means an expert, but I thought I'd share a few important health reminders.  As I've mentioned before, we really put a huge emphasis on our health because of Joe's Crohn's and we value our bodies so much!! We only get on body, so we should treat it like gold.  That said, I know that it's impossible to be perfect 100% and I'm totally guilty of enjoying a glass of vino every now and then.  Heck, I even give my kids McDonald's every once in awhile.

However, it's 90% of the time where we try our best to do the following.

1.  Sleep

I find that I work best on 7-8 hours.  It's not always easy, but man when I don't get my sleep--I feel awful, I act terrible and I just can't think straight.  Getting enough sleep would be my BIGGEST suggestion if you're irritable.  Mama I know it's tough when the babes are small and not sleeping through the night; it's insane.  DO NOT load up on coffee and other caffeine drinks. Simply try to get more sleep.  Get a sitter. Have your husband get up.  I wish I had taken my sleep a little more seriously with my second kid.  I definitely feel like I got a little nutty with no sleep.  Now we are BLESSED to have to babes sleep through the night.  It was a lot of tough love and work, but we never co-slept or even had the babies in our room. Personal preference, but man I am so thankful we did that today.  Our kids sleep 12 hours a night now, most nights.

2.  Drink Water 

I mean only water.  I learned that you should drink half of your body weight in water daily, and I swear it helps me stay alert, my skin is clearer and I don't eat too much junk.  Play around with the water to see what you prefer; I like mine ICE cold and Joe likes his water room temperature.  I'll add grapefruit essential oil to give it a new flavor.  Lemon or strawberries can be added to give it a different taste too.  I also have found how amazing products like Yeti or Corkcicle can keep your drinks super cold all day and all night.

3.  Move

I hate to say you have to exercise, but we really should try to sweat for 10-20 minutes (if not more) daily.  Get outside, get some fresh air, walk the dog. Chase your kids. Jump rope. Go on you tube and workout for free.  Find something that you enjoy and do it. A lot.  If you just make it a habit to do 10 minutes a day, I bet you'll surprise yourself and end up moving even more.  It's so good to keep our bodies stretching, moving and sweating.

4.  80/20

I personally feel my best when I don't eat packaged or processed junk. I know it's easy and convenient, but it's not worth the price of feeling like garbage.  I think our plates should be mostly veggies/greens, fruits--basically anything that has been grown! Also focus on lean proteins like organic chicken, pork, and lots of fish. I know it's so tempting to eat pizza, burgers and fries all the time but it's just not good for us.  The more veggies and fruits you eat, and reduce the starchy carbs, you'll be amazed at the energy and awesome feel good vibes you will have!

5.  Limit Sugar 

It's a tricky one, that sugar! It sneaks into everything we eat and drink, even if we are trying to be aware.  Watch those expensive Starbucks drinks; I am guilty as charged.  Just had to reign in my bad habit with over 40 grams a pop for most of them, it's not good for our guts OR bank accounts. Just sayin.  Sugar is so addicting and really does a number on us.  I try very hard to limit sugar going into my kids' mouths and will definitely be donating or throwing away most of their candy after Halloween.  2 & 4 they don't need all that junk! Enjoy the holiday, but don't overdue it. That's my motto.

6.  Don't stress

Stress kills.  Slow down and breathe.  Take some time for yourself; if I'm getting worked up, I try to stop and ask myself, will this matter in 5 minutes? 5 days? 5 months? 5 years? Most likely, no.  Chill out and stop stressing.  Find some good habits like taking a walk, a bubble bath or reading a book to take your mind off of whatever is bugging you.  Essential oils helped me a lot; I breathe them in, do some yoga and move on. #namaste

7.  Personal Development {PD}
Kind of becoming a trendy thing, and I'm super excited about this! I think EVERYONE should listen or read something motivational every single day.  Just like our bodies, we have got to take care of our minds.  What we think about, becomes.  What we believe, we can achieve. If you can learn to train yourself to "not go there" down the path of worry, stress, anger, madness...and focus on positivity, gratitude, and becoming better than yesterday, life gets so much better. I'm not perfect. I still get upset, yell, become frustrated, but I know each day I work at it to become a better version of myself. (see these posts for more)

8.  Laugh

I do believe laughter is the best medicine. Once I learned to stop taking life so seriously, I've become a happier person. Watch more comedies. Hangout with people who are funny.  Enjoy being silly and goofy with your kids. Lighten up. Life is too short to get all twisted over a bunch of garbage; so just laugh it off. I am so thankful my husband taught me this 9 years ago.  I was so uptight and worried about so much, it's a wonder I enjoyed much of anything!  Pull up some funny memes, go to you tube, whatever makes you crack a smile, go do it on the daily.

9.  Vitamins/supplements

Obviously work with a Dr. or healthcare professional.  I strongly believe in taking some supplements to stay healthy.  I think vitamin D is super important up here in NY because we never see the sun from October until pretty much May it seems.  I know that omegas help immensely with a lot.  A solid multi-vitamin is also key to staying healthy.  Probiotics have got to be my #1 recommendation if nothing else.  Good gut bacteria is essential and with all of the "food" we eat, it's not always helping our guts.  Find a good probiotic or two and add them into your diet. Kombucha is also really good, along with Kefir.  Even yogurt in moderation is awesome.

10.  Green Tea {matcha}

Since my reflux, I just can't do anything that has a lot of caffeine.  I've always enjoyed green tea, so I usually have a cup of that.  I have however, found a new love: Matcha.  I've talked a lot about it lately, but I can't stop raving about it.  It gives me a slow released energy all day. No high. No crash. It's just a subtle calming energy.  Google it; there are TONS of benefits!  Sure I love one from Starbucks but it is loaded with sugar and it's $$.  Here is my homemade recipe; I ordered the matcha powder from Amazon. 

10 Things

...that people don't know about me!  Well that's a tricky one since I consider myself a pretty open book.  I suppose it's all based on perception and what I think people don't know, even though I feel like everyone should know pretty much everything about me.  Either way, I thought this would be fun since I'm 35 and I have changed a lot since I started blogging; (I'm pretty sure I've blogged about this kind of thing before!)

1.  I hate the "victim mentality."  Anyone who makes excuses or plays the "poor me card" on a regular basis doesn't cut it with me.  I've straight up told (and lost friends) how I felt with their pity parties.  Don't make excuses, just be better. You can have your whoa is me moment IF it's really necessary, but pick yourself up, brush yourself off and get over it. Life is TOO short!

2.  I love hip hop and gagsta rap.  (Along with Jazz music, disco, country, classical & pop!) I remember being in college and my friend Norm was like what is with your rap crap??  I was so happy to find out that Joe was a hip hop lover and we still have so much fun bumping and blaring inappropriate tunes in his car, without the kids.  Something about it makes ya feel bad ass. (See: I'm also a huge dork)

3.   I went to SUNY Fredonia for my undergrad, Masters at SUNY Brockport & got a job teaching English right out of college.  I taught grades 7-12 and 7th was my favorite! I was a teacher for 8 years and then decided to stay home and play housewife.  Things got real when we had our baby Brooke and then added baby Bradley.  Now I'm the CEO of my household as my friend Elizabeth calls it.  No I don't consider myself "wearing the pants" but I do run this place like a boss.  The cooking, shopping, laundry, dishes, walking the dog, bathing the kids, everything that happens in this house is pretty much me.  Why?  My husband works like a million hours a week and even on his days off, he's still off working on something. I take my job very seriously (and really enjoy my days off like yesterday with a shopping day!)

4.  I cook breakfast every single morning and this is something I hope to never stop! It wasn't something that either of us grew up with, but Joe and I love having family breakfast every day.  I make eggs, waffles (usually frozen unless it's a weekend) bacon, maybe cereal for the kids or oatmeal, and fresh fruit.  Vitamins are laid out and everyone eats together, unless baby boy is hangry, in which case ya feed the kid first to get him to stop crying. Don't worry, he'll eat more later!

5.  I have a really really big heart, BUT I will not be treated like crap.  I grew up in a household where I pretty much daily tried to please my parents. I used to take pride on being the good girl. I did my homework, got good grades, did not party (drink/smoke etc) and loved hanging out with my sisters.  I worked two jobs my senior year before I went to college while I lost most of my friends because all they wanted to do was party.  I carried this "goody-two-shoes" act for awhile, though I really enjoyed my college years.  Along the way I have learned that you have got to put yourself first because as an adult, the only one you should be pleasing is yourself.  Ultimately you will piss people off and I've come to terms with it's their deal, not mine.  I still have a huge heart but I focus my efforts on the people who matter most in my life and stay away from the drama.

6.  I never dreamed I would be in direct sales.  I know if you've followed my journey, you have seen me lose weight and become super healthy with Advocare.  I am pretty proud of all that I did with Advo & still to this day earn a little income each month simply from all of the hard work I did years ago.  My biggest takeaway from that experience was my health; I learned how to eat the right foods for my body type and also I gained confidence.  I started reading more self-development books and really saw a huge shift in myself.

7.  That said, I was nervous to take the leap with Keep Collective & then Stella & Dot.  Since the vitamin world wasn't really doing it for me any more, I wanted to have something a little more fun and that I could actually play with/party with.  I was super worried about what others would think; I never wanted to come across as the girl who's trying to sell everything.  But then one day it just clicked and I realized I just don't care what people think.  If I'm happy and helping others girls have fun and feel pretty with some beautiful accessories, go with it! Hello dream job! Now I can actually have trunk shows and adult time to really enjoy other women's company.

8.  I'm a bookworm.  It got hard to read after having kids and easy to make excuses; one day I just stopped all that junk and started really to listen to audiobooks. (Which by the way I just read a big article on how they're making such a huge comeback!)  Our iphones make it so easy to upload a book (free from Overdrive and your library!) or you can buy a book at audible, an amazon company.  I listened to two or three books and then was completely hooked on that rush you get when you finish a good novel.  Listening is a little tricky, but for a SAHM alone with two little kids, I have more time to listen and do the dishes, laundry, clean then I do to sit down and actually read a book.  Which, I do still make time to physically read, but I find listening to be a little easier.

9.  I am pretty observant and often read into things.  It's something I'm trying to work on not doing, because you really can drive yourself crazy.  I think that it will come in handy when our kids are teenagers and I'm very aware of all that they are doing or are trying to do.  It weird me out a little bit when I get home and I can tell that the babysitter moved stuff around the house, my cupboards or dishes or whatever.  I think this stems from me being a control freak and I really don't like anyone else taking over my jobs or helping me, even though I am well aware that I am not super woman and that I do need assistance.

10.  I take some things super serious.  I find that if I can pick and choose some "challenges" or goals and follow them through, it feels so good at the end.  Sometimes I fail and give up on things, like working out every single day or eating 100% clean, but I really try to give myself grace.  This little blogging challenge makes me finish something every day and that feels really good.  I think staying home and raising kids is one of the best things I could ever do; the hard part is that I don't really see the good that I am doing.  There's no pay check or "mommy you're doing a great job!" haha. Nor is there something to check off at the end of the week.   It's one of those things where later on, down the line I'm sure I'll fully realize all that I was doing in these crazy days of mine, but giving myself personal goals has helped me keep my own mind on track and feeling a sense of "Jenn" and not just mom/wife.  That's important to me.

Probably a little more than I could have written, but there you have it!  Maybe you learned something about me? What are 10 things about you?

Day 5: Be Selfish

Sometimes we put ourselves on the back burner.  We don't take time to pamper ourselves, read a good book, sit down and eat a healthy meal. 

I'm telling you it's OK to be selfish! If you take some time to fill yourself up, you will have more to give to others. It's really just a matter of making ourselves a priority from time to time.  

If you feel like you're just empty, it's time to be selfish.  (maybe only an hour or two of time by yourself is what you'll need!)

What's your favorite way to be selfish?

Weekend Recap!!

Friday was hot hot hot!! Loving little man's summer outfit.  Easy to clean!

We have yet to clean our deck off, but I think that will be our numero uno thing to do this weekend.  It's about 48 here and rainy today, so it's not like I could use it anyway. But, little miss B doesn't mind the leaves and dirty feet…

She is such a a good big sissy! She ends up in just a diaper too. [[hopefully not much longer--potty gods are with me today--keep it coming!]]  How I love summer.

Friday night we went out for a DATE NIGHT!! I really didn't think we'd get one in for May, but we managed---thanks to my super amazing best ever mother-in-law Mama D!!!  She came by to hang with the littles so we could get out on the town… I got to wear a cute dress, do my hair and wear a new necklace. Woop woop happy dance.

In my hubby's new ride!! He is so sexy and he's all mine.  He's so funny about how much he loves his new car. I even joked around a bit and said, who are you taking out on this date me, or her?! (the car) but it was such a blast.  We had an amazing dinner outside and drove around with the top off--perfection!

Totally didn't take my phone out at all during dinner, but I assure you--the champs I had along with some old world red vino from Portugal---Oh my word---mini wedge salad, oysters, and filet, lobster tail…freaking amazing.  Best meal all month!


My life was made complete when my favorite wine EVER followed me on Insta.  #winningatlife

Can I just TOOT my own horn for a minute?  I mean, I am so stinking proud of myself. While the scale hasn't budged much and my clothes are still tight, I am getting there people. Legit, loving myself from the inside out is working! I can literally feel myself getting stronger and that is just an amazing feeling.  The elliptical has become so much easier for me and I am actually enjoying workouts again. Yahoo!

Trust me, being fat, out of shape and working out is NOT FUN.  I won't lie to ya.  When I haven't worked out in oh, say, 9 months--cough--cough---and I go and try to start up. It sucks.  But sticking with it, doing something a little different each day or even just 3-4 days a week, I am feeling it!

Oh and if you haven't made this buffalo chicken quinoa salad, go do so stat!! You're welcome.

Recipe here  (pictured below is my version) I switch it up and just use whateva I have on hand. Sometimes it's beans, broccoli ---creamy blue cheese --- a smidge people!  Or a little ranch.  So darn good!

It's legit been so hot my oil melted and I had to put it in the fridge. Now it's 48 and rainy out…boo. I can probably take it back out now.

Some lazy Sunday morning drink fest.

And we attended an engagement shower for someone that works with Joe.  It was so cold we couldn't really go outside, plus it was raining, but the lodge had a little fire and we lasted about 2 hours before mr. started cranking out.  No not here, even though he looks petrified haha

I told my husband to go get Brooke a cup.  He repeated to me, (or so I thought) a cup? Yes dear a cup. She needs water…

He came back with a POP. With caffeine.  She had a few sips, swirled and twirled around for a few minutes and threw a football that almost landed in the salad, but hey guess what?! She survived.

I could probably go on a rant about all this crazy parenting advice that I have been falling for and sharing the last two years, but all I am going to say is, I have stopped.  Stopped what, you say? Stopped the crazy insanity.  I am no longer going to try and live "that" way.  I will always have my children's best interests at heart, but for goodness sakes the lengths we all go to try and keep things pinterest perfect has stopped at my house.  Sure I will still use pinterest, that is not my point. But everyone has a damn opinion about something (as is his or her right) but that doesn't mean I have to feel guilty about things such as…my daughter having a few sips of a coke.  She survived!! No I don't plan on giving it to her (like ever) but my point is, I have started 'unfollowing' more people than I care to admit because I am sick and tired of parental advice being shoved down my throat.

This is my pre-workout cray cray face.  I may or may not have had a Spark and some arginine before attempting PiYo Drench. Holy mother. I couldn't even finish it, partially because my toes are peeling---stupid dry feet---I am using some stuff called Foot logic and I "think" it's working, but they girls at the Spa told me to keep using it for about a month to notice. Anyway, 45 minutes was a long workout and I made it about 35.  Not bad.

So yeah, I guess you can say my throat chakra has been opened and that my outspoken self has re-surfaced and I am crazy, full of life and love with my whole heart. Take me or leave me, but I am just loving this journey I am on called life.

Peace lovies!! Talk soon. xoxo

Chakra Balance Massage [O.M.G]

So, I'm not sure if it's the bags under my eyes or if I really just work that hard with my kiddos, but either way, my husband said to me last week, "You deserve a Spa Day.  You need to go and get all done up, whatever services you want.  Talk to my mom and figure it out."  Well, later that day he ended up talking to his mom for me and she promptly took a half day last Thursday and I got to treat myself to a Spa Day.   {Thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you Mama D!!!!}

I randomly found this one Spa, Luxe  It was one I had never been to, nor heard much of before.  I was drawn to it because I have begun a little more self-discovery and have been working on myself a lot.  I've been looking into meditation, yoga, Mala beads and tons of self-improvement.  I feel as though when you open yourself up to the universe, everything unfolds itself to you.  And so, there it was.  A Chakra Balancing Massage.  I had no clue what it would really entail, but I was ready to find out!

Since hubby said get whatever you want done, I figured I would throw a facial and pedi in there for good measure.  [bliss]

So first of all, the Spa was HUGE! I'm not going to lie, the location doesn't really do it justice, and from the outside it kinda looks like an old motel or something.  But inside? Top of the line.  The changing room/bathrooms were stunning.  Soft fluffy robes and little slippers to put on.

There were several little waiting areas, one with a gas fireplace and one that had this funky looking one!  There was tea, water with orange slices and fresh fruit.  Everything to make you feel zen and full of bliss.

I haven't really done my homework on all 7 of the Chakras. I know the main idea of them, but I still don't know what color associates with each one and what each chakra does.  You don't need to know any of it if you go and get this done, the person will explain as much as you want!!

First she told me that this particular massage I was getting, she does a deep tissue massage and trouble spots (for me it was my back and neck, so I laid face down).  She then does her energy work (chakra balancing) and pretty much the energy work is known as Reiki, (ray-key) which I hadn't really heard of before and now am becoming so interested and want to know more!

Aveda is the product line they use, so she had me pick out 3 cards that either the colors or words stuck out to me.  Each one represented a Chakra and had corresponding scents to help open/balance them.  I chose three, I forget which ones, and she had me close my eyes and smell each one.  The one I liked best was the "heart" or Harmony card.  ---Side note, you get to take a bottle of that mist home with you from your massage!  It had lots of sandalwood and she said it was a popular scent.

Hard to see, I didn't have the flash on but my "Heart Chakra" card…a lot about sympathy, empathy, and love.

Now, I find it strange that I was drawn to this one, because well…I have a really big heart and all day and night, I care for my loved ones.  But as I got to thinking, maybe that was the point.  Perhaps I had SO much love, it needed to be balanced a bit with my other Chakras…thoughts?  Like I said, I am totally new to this.

So the actual "massage" went like this-- I laid face down and she massaged my back/neck and it felt soooooo good! I've had massages before and she was great. Not too hard, not too light, but just right.  Then she started to just put her hands on my and stand there and I was a little confused, like what is this??  Then it hit me, that must be the energy work.




Once I flipped over to my back and face was out, HOLY MOLY.  Talk about a spiritual/out of body/really flipping cool experience.  She had told me before we started, some people see colors, some see images, and if I get overwhelmed at any point, we could stop.  I tried so hard to clear my mind and not think [but as we all know, that's really hard to do.] so  I just went with it.

As she touched different Chakra points, my mind filled with different colors. I kid you not, believe me or don't, but it is straight up awesome what can come into your head!  I saw lots of white light as she was at my head/Crown Chakra and I kind of felt a little buzzy? It's hard to really put into words.

I kept seeing a crazy big open eye with long lashes (representing my 3rd eye probably) and lots of purple and blue.

She said my throat chakra was pretty closed, and I don't really recall many thoughts as her hands were placed there.  At first I was like what???!!! I am known for talking too much, for saying what is on my mind and not exactly holding back.  But then again, I have also learned to be quiet and keep things in.  There are lots of people and instances in my life where I just don't agree or like what is going on, but I don't say anything. She kind of laughed and said I just need to find a way to get that out.

As I continued to reflect, I thought a lot about me.  As a teacher, I couldn't do, wear, say, act, certain ways because, well I was a teacher.  I respected that profession and took it very seriously; I didn't even like running into my students at a mall!!  And after I no longer taught, I remember feeling a bit free….

Well, to be blunt, I kind of felt that way again when I started taking my AdvoCare biz seriously. Don't say this, don't post that, don't, don't…don't…which I completely understand and totally get, but it's not me. .I am such an all or nothing kinda girl, I love the products, I love my team, I totally support everyone, but if I want to have a cup of coffee or a glass of wine and share it on social media? I'm gonna.  Which is why I haven't been posting much about it.  I am just me. I take my products, I promote a healthy lifestyle but I human and once in awhile, ok weekly, I eat sushi with white rice and soy sauce.  And I'm more than ok with it.

And as I continued to think about other areas in my life, I realized how much I hold back because of our lifestyle and I don't want to come off as braggy or this or that.  I never even shared my beautiful Christmas gift from him, because I was almost embarrassed…why would I be embarrassed, if this man who works so hard and wants to spoil me with a gorgeous handbag??  Don't I deserve it?  Can I not be honest and share it? But I've realized, again, that those who really know us, know how hard we work to achieve where we are at.  That Joe and I work together, and if I want to show off his new whip on instagram or Facebook and someone thinks whatever, that's fine.  I'm learning to just be happy and okay with who I am.  I only get one life and one way to live it and if I'm constantly worrying about what someone thinks or that heaven forbid I post something and they unfollow me, WHO CARES?  Life is short and sweet and there is only so much time for happiness and celebrating others.  Sure there will always be negative people, but it is not my job to worry about them.

So yes, this was way more than just a simple massage for me.  It is part of a journey that I am so excited to be on.  I have so much to grow and learn and just really become super comfortable in my own skin.

My mind was racing with images however, when she was at my heart.  I kept seeing myself as a kid playing with my sisters and I kept seeing my two babies, playing and laughing. I literally felt so much energy during that and it is what stood out the most.    She told me afterwards she felt SO much mothers love coming from me, it was like whoa.

She didn't say much at all about my sacral chakra.

She said my root Chakra was weak and that it was OK to be more grounded…. I had told her how I was all of a sudden open to all of this new age stuff and she said that it was evident in my balancing because my crown was going crazy!! I am all over the place trying to learn all this new spiritual stuff, but I always have to remember it's ok to just be.  Stand on the ground, feel the earth, be one with nature.  LOVE THAT!!

She did reflexology on my feet after the energy work and then we were finished.

I asked her if there is anything I should work on and she said that she does not tell her clients what to do, she really just shares what she can and the rest is up to us.  I really want to know if she could see or feel more that she didn't tell me??

Oh she did sense some nervous energy at first, (probably when I was like WTF am I paying you for, if you're just standing there touching my leg haahha!) Like I said, I had no clue what I was getting into. NOW I know. I just have to laugh at myself at this point.

When she was all done she told me to take my time sitting up and she'd come back with water.  I am telling you, I could barely move!! I was like shaky and it took some time to actually sit up and come to. I took a photo of myself and I felt like I looked a little drunk!! Ha

After that amazing  experience, I then had my facial!  The lady was totally different and really outgoing and it took a few minutes for me to get used to her energy, I know I sound all woo woo but I am serious!  She ended up being really nice, but at first I was like what the ?!

I had a major glow after that and felt 10 years younger.

Here is my 'free bottle' of the Chakra scent.

Oh, and my pedi was great too!! Charged Up Cherry is what I went with---LOVE it! Perfect for Spring.

So of course I am totally digging this whole energy work thing and I don't take it lightly.  I know that if you're not careful, you could get yourself into some crazy things… but I am interested in maybe learning how to balance myself and learn how to do it on my kids and definitely my husband--especially because his Crohn's can flare up from time to time and I feel as though we are all connected and everything works together. 

Gimme all the crystals, mala beads and high vibrations please!! 

Kiddos [Lately]

Crazy how I can go from zero to busy in such a quick time!! I am so happy to report that everyone here in the house is healthy and well--my allergies are a bit annoying--itchy eyes--but other than that, all is well!!  It's been really great these last few days and I want to make sure I capture some moments up on the blog!

This one.  Oh, he is just too much!

But these two?? Be still, my heart.  Brooke is really starting to become more and more interested in "brudder" and you can find them smiling, laughing, "talking", holding hands, rubbing feet…you name it, she's such a good big sister!

I tried him in the high chair--I cannot believe he is big enough.  We go tomorrow for his 4 month checkup!! Oh, my, goodness.

Mama D stopped by briefly before we headed out to dinner.  {and she loves them so much she'll be back Thursday so I can have some MOMMY TIME!! ahhh!! So excited and thankful!}

Unless he's hungry, tired, or needs a change, you will see lots of this.

Saturday we met my friend and her kids at a park.  They had so much fun, those little monkeys!

She taught Brooke how fun it was to run through dandelions and kick them!

Such a big girl…

My little baby boy!

She was trying to get him to hold one of his toys.

Sunday was a gorgeous day, and after an early sushi dinner we came home to enjoy the sun.   Joe and Brooke had a ball with the water gun!

He's not totally ready for the doorway jumper, but he loved sitting in it and looking around.  His little arms fall to the side though, so I had to be right here to help.

And tonight, Bradley fell asleep in his swing and Miss Brooke and I had some girl time.  We played and read stories…she loves her book Grandma made her.

And me? I'm doing really well.  I feel like I was sort of in a funk, and ya know what, I get that way every end of Winter--Spring.  I know so much has changed, for the better, and the changing of those seasons, to me, is the most dramatic! It's like we never go gradually from cool weather to slowly warming up, it's all of a sudden, BAM 30-80 degrees and I'm all like whoa.  Also, we now have two little kids; not just like small but baby small!! It's crazy and I have to stop and remind myself, pretty much every day, that I just need to enjoy it.  Breathe it in.  Let what is, be, and love my life where it's at.  Granted, I still need a break and totally appreciate my solo Target run the other night and again, I am sooooo looking forward to my "ME DAY" Thursday.  

Joe and I have had some great quality time too; we haven't gone out or anything, but just lots of good talks about our future and even had time to watch movies!  I'll shamelessly admit we totally watched 50 Shades and I may or may not be actually reading 50 Shades Darker.  We also just watched MockingJay and that ending had me at whaaaaaa. No fair.

Anyway, back to me...I'm turning a corner and really working on my spirituality, my understanding of all that is, and trying to find peace, calming and balance in my world.  Again, with a very active 2 year old and a 4 month old, that's pretty funny of me to even type, I'm literally laughing at myself, I know, but in all realness, I feel like I have begun a little journey…I've taken a left at a fork in a road, and I'm excited to see where it leads me.  More on that later, but for now, a sneak peak of some new purchases!

I hope you are all doing well….love and light to all!!

Self Care/Guilty Pleasure

Being a mommy of two little ones I know first hand how hard and how necessary it is to still take care of myself.  I read an article not too long ago about being a mom and wife and it articulated my feelings so well---stating that we give and give, until we thing we have nothing left to give in our day/night and yet we are forced to give some more.  Newborns need so much care and attention and toddlers are exhausting even when you are getting a full night's sleep!  But just when I feel like "I just can't," I find that I am peeling myself off of my bed, half opened eyes, and kissing foreheads, wiping bottoms, and loving just a little more.  And because of the endless needs having to be met by mommy, what is it that I do for myself?  Well, I admit the "guilty pleasure" post kind if feeds into this as well, so I am combining the two!

√ Workout -- it really does release endorphins and helps me focus and feel better after a good sweat sesh.  Even if it's a 20 minute workout, it is better than nothing and I always, always, always feel better.

√ Get outside.  Now that the weather is nicer I try so hard to get outdoors.  Nature always helps!

√ Tea {or some sort of hot beverage} The simple act of sipping something hot soothes me.

√  An "escape" through TV or book.  With the ability to binge watch a show, I've gotten hooked on a few shows.  Pretty Little Liars, as I've mentioned before, is just so silly and I just love their outfits/hair/makeup ha!  I am just a lover of fashion, what can I say.  I also enjoy Real Housewives now that Bethenney is back.  I also like other You Tube mommies.  When do I watch?  While folding laundry, on the elliptical, before falling to sleep, or even when doing my endless dishes. It helps me not feel so isolated, I guess!

√ Good wine.  If I have a glass (or two) I really want to enjoy the taste. I see nothing wrong with enjoying a little bit, here or there.  Drinking every night? That would be a problem, but a solid glass of red with some pasta on a Sunday or a white pinot grigio in the summer?  Divine.

√  Girl time.  Ideally time spent out of the house and without the kids.  It is necessary from time to time to just be around my girls!! It doesn't happen nearly as often as I would like, but as the kids get bigger, I know I will make more time to do this.

√ Date night.  We have been so busy with everything, but we really make an effort to get out at least once a month. I admit that we both would like to get out more often, but I still have yet to take the plunge and find babysitters we trust.  That is my goal by the end of May, so that hubby and I can get out more often this summer.

√  Be kind to myself.  More than anything, I have to remind myself of the "oxygen mask theory" and that if the house is not 100% clean, but I need to take a timeout and do one of the above, I do.   I really have to stop myself and not compare myself to anyone else.  I know it is so hard to not do that, but I know that I am my own person and that I have to just always be true to myself.  I am not someone who has a super neat and tidy house 100% of the time.  I am creative and I like to do projects--and I love to cook, all day long.  So the reality is what it is and I just do my best to not get too hard on myself.

I really enjoy fashion and makeup, so sometimes I do allow myself to just sit and curl my hair or put on makeup.  It makes me feel like a pretty woman, and that is so important to me to feel good sometimes.

This #bedm concept reminds me of a post I wrote last June, you can read that HERE.

What do you do for self care or a guilty pleasure?!

Adventure

Once upon a time, I met a man who, let's say, pushed me out of my comfort zone.   Since the day we met, I quickly learned that our entire life could (and would) be an adventure.  From simple Sundays to lavish vacations, we are constantly exploring, taking chances and living our dream life!! I don't think I have ever heard my husband say, "I am bored" and I know that I have not uttered those words since I have met him.  That is how I know I met the right "one."  {well, for many reasons, but for sure, his passion for life and adventure is a sure catch!}



I have always been one to want to try new things, take chances and put myself out there.  Sometimes I need a push, but I know that in some form or another, I am always grateful for any adventure I have embarked upon.  

Lately "adventures" may be more like filling up a tumbler with a beverage that may resemble pinot grigio and having my husband chauffeur us around to Target, the Dry Cleaner's and the grocery store.  Seriously, if you feel like you're a bit in a lull, go grocery shopping after a glass of vino. (obvs no drinkie and drivie) but it honestly felt like a mini vacation. It was quite fun to spruce up the mundane chore of buying food and make it a bit more lively.



Like I have mentioned before, my husband is constantly working on something, and so his ideas are nothing less than an adventure!  It takes guts, hard work and tons of motivation/dedication, and each day we spend together leads to something new.

We have had tons of vacation adventures, from Caribbean islands, Mexico, Toronto, LA, South Carolina, Europe, we have traveled many places and see so many amazing sites.  I know we have barely even stuck our feet in the waters in which we will travel.   Visiting other places does so much for a person's soul.  Our first vacation was a cruise, just after knowing each other for a month!  Many people would say we were crazy, which I agree, we were…but when you're in close quarters with a person on a ship, you quickly learn that you love or want to leave.  Clearly you can see what we chose.

8 years in a relationship,
5 years married this July.
Two dogs, now one,
and two beautiful children
later…
My adventure has just gotten started.

When I was single, and completely obsessed with SATC, I LOVED this quote:



I truly felt in my heart, I knew there just had to be someone out there for me.  I never wanted to settle in a relationship, and all too often I would find myself with some guy that just didn't get me.  I would try to make myself fit into his life, and it was all too much work.  Square peg, round hole, if you will {The Holiday--great movie!}  And although Joe and I have our fair share of differences, I feel like it's enough to keep things exciting and new, but not too much where we lose ourselves in the relationship.  So maybe I was inadvertently asking the universe to send me a wild and crazy man, by posting and believing this quote years ago, but I am sure glad of the adventure we are living, in this one crazy beautiful life.

What does adventure mean to you?

Introduction #BEDM

Hello!~

St. Martin

I am so excited that it is MAY!! April was full of germs and cold weather…so I am hoping for lots of sun and pretty Spring flowers!! Summer is my favorite season and I cannot wait to play in the sun with my two kiddos.

As you'll see (if you watch the video) I love life.  I have a lot to say and sometimes don't know how to hold back; I tend to say what is on my mind, unless I have time to think about it.  I turned to blogging a few years ago, when I quit teaching and was simply a housewife.  My husband and I laugh at how I thought I was "busy" then.  Sure, I was busy.  I was making lavish, gourmet meals and spending countless hours at salons. Hair. Nails. Pedicure. Wax.  You name it, I was keeping myself quite pampered.  Now?  I am lucky to get a 4 minute shower and the only salon I frequent is my hairdresser because I am a blonde at heart, but unfortunately not at the roots. ;)

I love being a mommy and would not trade this season of my life for the world!  I know that all too soon, they won't need me for every waking second and that these sticky hugs and stinky diapers won't last forever.  In the midst of mommy mode, I do my very best to be a good wifey! I adore my husband and I put him and the kids before my own needs most of the time.  I know when I need a timeout, and I try my very best to balance working out, eating right, and doing things that I LOVE--which brings me to blogging.  I love to write and I love to read; neither of which I do a ton of because of many reasons.  My husband works long hours at his day job, has several houses as part of a rental company, is fixing one house right now and just embarked in a start up company.  He has an entrepreneurial spirit that cannot be tamed, just simply harnessed.  He has big dreams, as do I, and we do our best at cheering each other on.

So who am I?

I am a confident and loyal person.  I love salty air, sand between my toes, and beach hair.  I have a flare for the dramatic and have learned to weed the drama (mostly) out of my life.  I much rather watch it or read it, not live it.  I have everything I could have ever dreamed of and each day keeps getting better.  I have learned to live a "progress not perfection" life.  I used to be way more uptight when I was younger but have learned to loosen my grip a bit.   I constantly have goals and dreams that I am trying to achieve.  I think that is why my husband and I get along so well; we are just full of never-ending ideas!

I am not someone who has 200 friends, but rather just a small handful of really close ones.  I am shy at first, but I am really trying to put myself out there.  My goal is to make more mommy friends so that my kids have other kids to play with…since I feel like we are alone a lot, I want that to change.

So, if you are new, hello!! And if you've been with me awhile, maybe you'll learn something new.  Ask  me anything, as I really want to to take my blog to the next level and really discover more about myself.

{{I was all ready for my workout, which did happen finally at 8pm last night!!}}

Woot Woot Wednesday!

Wahoo It's finally April!! Hopefully it will feel like Spring ASAP!  I have been thinking it's Thursday, only because hubby worked late last night (end of month) and usually he's home earlier on Tuesdays..but alas, it's only Winesday--errr I mean Wednesday! 

Not gonna lie, I am totally envious of all the Spring breakers posting photos of themselves in the sun, on a beach, having fun! It makes me so excited for our summer getaway.  I swear Joe and I talk about it almost every day--I need to start planning out some fun things to do with the kids and figure out some "toddler school" stuff to teach Brooke before we go.  It will be so much fun and our first family getaway! I know we will have many family vacations, and it was just not practical to go away with bubs being so small.  We will travel soon enough!  

I saw this survey on Pinky's blog and thought it would be fun to fill out...

1.What's your favorite candle scent? Any baked good--not into floral candles
2. What female celebrity do you wish was your sister? Cameron Diaz
3. What male celebrity do you wish was your brother? Vince Vaughn
4. How old do you think you'll be when you get married? I was 28
5. Do you know a hoarder? Not a real one, but I know people who like to keep tons of stuff forever ;)
6. Can you do a split? I used to be able to, I honestly haven't tried in awhile…haha
7. How old were you when you learned to ride a bike? I think 6?
8. How many oceans have you swam in? 1, but I did make sure to walk/dip my feet in Pacific 
9. How many countries have you been to? 4…and a ton of islands, not sure which are countries of what though
10. Is anyone in your family in the army? No.
11. What would you name your daughter if you had one? Brooke
12. What would you name your son if you had one? Bradley 
13. What's the worst grade you got on a test? I'm sure I failed one or two. I am terrible at Math!
14. What was your favorite TV show when you were a child? Full House
15. What did you dress up as on Halloween when you were eight? Something pretty. I hated being scary!!
16. Have you read any of the Harry Potter, Hunger Game or Twilight series? Some of Harry & Hunger Games--not into vampires.
17. Would you rather have an American accent or British accent? British--I'm way too nasally.
18. Did your mother go to college? Yes 
19. Are your grandparents still married? Yes, though one set is no longer alive. <3
20. Have you ever taken karate lessons? No, but Joe insists that Brooke will!
21. Do you know who Kermit the frog is? Kermit dee frog here
22. What's the first amusement park you've been to? Disney World I believe
23. What language, besides your native language, would like to be fluent in? French, Italian, Japanese
24. Do you spell the color as grey or gray? Both ways
25. Is your father bald? Nope, he has all of his hair and it's NOT gray at all!
26. Do you know triplets? There were some that went to my HS
27. Do you prefer Titanic of The Notebook? Ouch, I have to choose?! Titanic. I saw it 3 times in the theatre!
28. Have you ever had Indian food? Yup! It's quite tasty. I love Naan
29. What's the name of your favorite restaurant? Gosh, I love fine dining.  Good Luck here, but I loved Emerill's in Las Vegas--so many waiters and all that service!  A cocktail before dinner, a paired wine with, and the water glass sits at a specific spot for "easy access".  That place was ON POINT!
30. Have you ever been to Olive Garden? Yes, love the soup/salad/breadsticks combo [even though it's like fast food Italian ha!}
31. Do you belong to any warehouse stores? BJs which I have to go get diapers today!
32. What would your parents have named you if you were the opposite gender? Michael? I dunno??
33. If you have a nickname, what is it? When I was little it was "fur fur", Joe calls me Rabbit, and I go by Jenn 
34. Who's your favorite person in the world? My husband Joe.
35. Would you rather live in a rural area or in the suburbs?  Rural. I cannot wait to move out to the country!  I don't like living on a track.
36. Can you whistle? Yes 
37. Do you sleep with a nightlight? No
38. Do you eat breakfast every morning? Yes-MOST important meal of the day!
39. Do you take any pills or medication daily? Supplements --no meds thank goodness.
40. What medical conditions do you have? None.  I am blessed to be so healthy. Unless you count the annoying ringing in my ear [tinnitus] but I can deal with it.
41. How many times have you been to the hospital? 3 (gave birth twice and I was sick with e-coli when I was 10)
42. Have you ever seen Finding Nemo? Just keep swimming! I think my sister and I even had a Nemo drinking game haha
43. Where do you buy your jeans? I really love Sevens, Express, Guess
44. What's the last compliment you got?  From Joe…he compliments me a lot.  
45. Do you usually remember your dreams in the morning? Usually, since my PLL addiction I have been having weeeeeird dreams!
46. What flavor tea do you enjoy? Green tea, Chai tea, English Breakfast, Earl Grey
47. How many pairs of shoes do you currently own? Well, I had to buy a shoe trunk to keep most of them and they still didn't all fit. :D
48. What religion will you raise your children to practice? Not too sure. I am Presbyterian, Joe was Catholic…some where in between. 
49. How old were you when you found out that Santa wasn't real? Santa is real!
50. Why do have a tumblr? a who? haha I don't.

As for a quick phone photo dump--

Mr. B is so cute in all of his 6 MONTH {omg} outfits!  This one said "Seriously Handsome" and yes, he's laying on my clothes I was folding.

Yesterday I put him in this cute number:  Little Hunk

I have been using just the teeeeeeeensisest of seasonings during the cleanse.  The chipotle  has quite the kick and was perfect on my plain chicken, which I turned into a taco. I've had a few people ask, so feel free to check it out: TS eat well 

I am also super proud that we went to the grocery store, just the 3 of us!  I have been skirting around doing so for a few reasons.  One being I like the alone time to shop. Two, there is no room in the dang cart with both kids! And three, the weather.  So yesterday we needed our staples and it was 37 degrees and sunny.  Yay.

She kept calm with her shades on--well, my shades.  I tried to put them on her correctly but they slide down her nose, ha!  A non frosted sugar cookie to boot.

By checkout he was asleep.  I'd say it was a success!  I didn't need much, but still managed to spend about the same.  #buyingorganic

I came home, unloaded the groceries and Brooke actually played on the back deck while I made her dinner.  She is dying to get outside and play with bubbles!! After that was bath time, then post bath selfies.

My little man!

Brooke's new thing is to put her animals in a bag and tote them around.

Totally random, but I am in a desperate need of a Pretty Little Liars intervention.  I have a problem.  I took a screen shot of Hannah's hair--I loved this style!--and I just love her! She's so funny and her outfits are always on point.  They don't even look like HS girls, and why me, a 33 year old is completely hooked on this show, I am really not sure.  Buuuuut it seems like I am not the only one!  As silly as it sounds, but watching this show makes me want to dress up more.  Joe came home last week and was like, where are you going?? I was wearing an old black sweater dress, makeup (lipstick) and some jewelry. I told him I was sick of being in ratty shirts and yoga pants! I miss dressing up like I did for teaching, and I know it's kind of weird because all I do is get puked, peed and pooed on, but I enjoy dressing up! So I started doing that and I swear it helped my mood.  

And for laughs--not appropriate but you gotta chuckle at it, I mean, really…

On that note, I must pack miss B up because she is heading over to nana and papa's house for a sleep over with her cousin!

Laterz!