Blogging Break (?)

Spring is literally in the air and I can feel the warm weather trying so hard to creep in! I love the sun, I know I talk about it a lot, but really I am so excited for it to be around more often.

Life is good around these parts! We are super busy with the land, well really Joe is busy and I am just busy with tending to the kids by myself a bit more.  Team work!  We also just bought our 5th rental and are really taking life to the next level.

Our limited kid-free time is now taken up by a lot of dreaming! We are in the beginning stages of choosing what type of layout we want for our house plants, (we may have found one!) and what we would like the outside of the house to look like.

We have a few dates lined up on the calendar, so that always feels so good to see!  It's like a reward for all of the hard "momming" and the long hours he puts in.  We are going to do another 5 course dinner at one of our favorite restaurants, so I'll try my best to take some good photos!

 We had a baby shower over the weekend which was so fun!  I am super thrilled for our friends who have been trying to so long to have a baby.  Their little girl is due at the end of April!

I ran the kids around like crazy today and they were pretty good! We had to get gas, I obviously needed a soy latte, the carwash (both kids cry!) the bank, the post office & Wegmans.

----insert cute and adorable photos of my darling babes----

I'm kind of at a crossroads of sorts with this blog.

I changed my instagram name as I wanted to rid my last name/connection to it.

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Why?  I was honestly talking with my hair dresser and we were talking about how I love to really try and be positive and focus on the good, even though I have bad days, we all do, I know how important it is to be grateful.  I love sharing what motivates me, hoping I can help other women find inspiration too...

I love supporting other women who are working in businesses, because I know how much those few extra bucks can help out around the house when you're home raising babies.

So again, what to do with the blog...

I love sharing my life and the kids, mostly because I love reading it.  Part of me wants to go private; the first time I have ever felt this way.

Honestly?

I get pretty fed up with the social media and real people in my life.

I blog and share things to connect with women who live miles away...women whom I most likely will never meet, because we live such a distance.

I did not start blogging to replace a text message (ugh) or even better a phone call or face time.  OR even a face to face interaction.  I know we are all busy, we'll always be busy, but this blog is not meant to be read to "know how Jenn and the kids are doing."

It actually creeps me out, like do any of my exes read this?  Joe's exes?  Ex friends? Because I have some of those.

I know I've stated it before, but I just feel like we as a society rely solely on communicating through social media.

So, what do I do?

I would really like to brand myself and grow.  I'm just not sure which direction or exactly how to do that.

I don't want to hide behind my kids.

I don't want to simply share snippets of my day with kids so my family and friends can see what we are doing.  If you'd like to know, I would love to share it through a more personal connection!!

I want to be more, do more and become more.

Kind of a hefty thought for a Monday, eh?

So, of course I turn here to figure out my thoughts and perhaps seek a bit of guidance from those of you who may read this little blog.

I've never really felt this way before about blogging; I started it sharing silly things, then shared and documented pregnancies, births, child rearing, but I am ready for more...deeper issues.

I really would like to write a book, so perhaps my focus should be on that.

I am really tuning into my inner voices and trying my best to follow my heart.

I can tell you, I've written more posts than I have published.   Why?  Fear of hurting others. Fear of what's to happen. Fear it's not what I really want to share or put out there.

But I can say that I have a lot inside that is trying to come out, and one way or another, if it's meant to, I assure myself that it will.

Perhaps it's an age thing; I'm no longer carefree in my 20's.  I'm not yet in my 40's (I just have this notion by 40 I'll have it all figured out...insert chuckle.)  I've been there done the dating, the engagement, the wedding, the baby...

And now I'm moving into this glorious stage of my life that is still so new and confusing, loving, frustrating, ideal and yet complicated at times!

I am all over the place.

I feel the need to pick something and stick with it.  Sure, I am good at a lot of things---that is not me being conceited, I just know that if I put my mind to something, I can do well.  Except for math.  I am terrible at math.

However, I need to really dig in and find my passion (other than being a wife and mom, that will never change!)  and hone in.  I need to develop myself further and really just work with that.


The only question is, what exactly is that?

I'm feeling like I may need to take a break from blogging to figure this out...


Stay beautiful!! xox